♡ #mcm is obv my kodiak bear. ♡
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that moment when your dealer randomly takes two bunnies out of his jacket
i literally cannot fathom this turn of events.
my boyfriend’s dad thought the smell of pot seeping through my bag was the smell of fish.
stuck in my boyfriend’s house while he’s at work. i’m all alone and it’s super comfy and i’m watching the following but i have work soon :c
I’m so sorry I haven’t written you anything yet for your birthday. I’m in the worst shape that I have ever been. I feel useless, stuck, trapped… I feel as if I’m falling through a black hole. I’ve become nothing, and yet you still look at me just as you did before. Things are much different from earlier… and I miss those times so tragically…I’ve been going through so many problems and I feel as though we both lost ourselves somewhere along the line and it hurts so bad… but I still wanted to do so much for your birthday… I wanted to make you happy like I did last year, but it was a mess… everything is a mess and some days I don’t know if I’ll be able to make it through, but in the end you’re always by my side. I miss the sandwiches you used to make me, and the cup of tea that would go with it. I miss the days we would just spend in bed, just sleeping and talking and fucking and then sleeping again… I miss learning every line and crater of your body, or to coarseness of your fingernails. I know we changed and I hate what had happened but you’ll always be my Kodiak, my king, my doppelganger. I can’t stop crying and moaning and I feel an emptiness on my chest because we don’t sleep next to each other every weekend anymore… we barely feel each other’s skin anymore and its mostly my fault. I just want everything back.